I want to do a mid life autobiography. Is that weird? I have a lot to say. A lot of questions that the public might have, I would like to answer those questions. I'm pretty sure that IS a thing. Perhaps I should do more homework upon that though lol. In all seriousness though, I would like to pursue that side of art. Books are a dying breed. I went into Barnes and Noble recently and felt such a happiness come over me and also a sadness at the same time. It's become obsolete to actually go into a book store and buy a book and then go home open it up and read it. Everything is digital now-a-days and it's not likely that people still enjoy the book reading experience. I would like to do that with a mid-career non-fiction novel. I would have to think long and hard about what I would name it. It would have to be super punk-rock and unique, also it couldn't be anything that most people would expect of me. It would have to have some sort of shock value. It seems that everyone is becoming an artist all of a sudden. Am I a trend-setter? Not sure of that just yet. Also, it's not up to me to be the judge of that. Someone else would have to notice that and then write about it. In all reality, I haven't accomplished much. So who am I to be that person someone would want to write about. Well, not to toot my own horn but I think I could be. In the art world, I have been digitally published and also in print. Archived forever. In music I have had radio play and debuted on 90.7 KPFK, an L.A. radio station on the FM dial. In a nutshell, that is all I could be recognized for technically. However, I do come from the streets and those stories, although unable to be completely told, that part of my life could be sold so as long as I coach a ghost writer properly, I think I could make that happen. Just saying. I mean this IS a blog right? I love to pour my heart out on any type of medium. Whether that is canvas, turntables, literature or poetry, rappin which yes it considered an art these days. The possibilites are endless.
This paragraph above was composed by me, Adrianne Lucia Jezin probably about a month ago. That would be around April of 2019 when after my minor radio accomplishment, I had a nervous breakdown. My mental well being is not an option for discussion on this blog or anywhere else.
It is June now and I'm still going through quite a bit in my personal life. After my radio debut, I single-handedly uprooted my own life and landed myself in jail and a mental hospital. I guess the response I thought I'd get from my facebook audience wasn't what I expected or was prepared for at all. It was a minor accomplishment but a big deal for a small town girl. The only problem is, my town isn't so small after all. We are next to the Heart of The Harbor where the wrong side of the tracks meets burly San Pedro, CA, 18 miles south of Downtown L.A. We literally do make the world go round and have been since I could remember being a longshoreman's daughter. I practiced spinning music privately for 12 years and was able to do so only with the financial support I had at that time from my mom, Gloria. I worked for her being her caregiver until she went to live in a nursing facility nearby. I've been around the block to say the least. I was always the quiet one with my headphones practicing on my laptop. Searching for all the funk and 70's soul, knowing off the top of my head hundreds of songs, and obtaining them for my library took A LOT of time. Learning how to beat match and train my ear was another big chunk of time, so I can't say I got much done in the past 10 years other than my art and music. It's all I know in this world. I have no children or no husband. I'm not wife material, nor would I ever claim to be. I'm a free spirit with a strong desire to have a husband, however I believe I haven't found the right person to fill those shoes although I know he's probably out there somewhere. It's a struggle for me to balance a committed relationship with anything or anybody because of my selfishness when it comes to making art and music. I feel GOD has blessed me with natural gifts I was born with, but it was up to me to take my own path in order to learn on my own how to enhance those gifts that were bestowed upon me. That is what I'm doing now. I took a break from the creative living life because although my work isn't exactly Rembrandt or Dali it is a ton of work and then also having my dj hobby, my life and most of the outside world could have easily passed me by and I would be okay with that, that is until March 23rd, 2019. As long as I am given the freedom to create I believe my contribution to the art and music world will be something that I leave behind, if it is not meant to be for me to have any children. This would be the second most important thing for me in life. I have complete faith that GOD will see that I am blessed with what I need in order to leave behind my legacy without EVIL entering that realm and ruining everything. I HATE for this to become a religious rant and rave, nor is it about morals, ethics, standard cost of living and or any other mundane subjects such as those. It is about me IN THIS blog right now, I am the author. My name is Adrianne Jezin. No matter what I do in life, I know creating paintings and art and producing dj mixes is and should be my full-time calling. Any one of us could pass away at any moment and then what? So this is my baby, my creation of what is to be my legacy left behind. To be continued.....(got tired lol)
This paragraph above was composed by me, Adrianne Lucia Jezin probably about a month ago. That would be around April of 2019 when after my minor radio accomplishment, I had a nervous breakdown. My mental well being is not an option for discussion on this blog or anywhere else.
It is June now and I'm still going through quite a bit in my personal life. After my radio debut, I single-handedly uprooted my own life and landed myself in jail and a mental hospital. I guess the response I thought I'd get from my facebook audience wasn't what I expected or was prepared for at all. It was a minor accomplishment but a big deal for a small town girl. The only problem is, my town isn't so small after all. We are next to the Heart of The Harbor where the wrong side of the tracks meets burly San Pedro, CA, 18 miles south of Downtown L.A. We literally do make the world go round and have been since I could remember being a longshoreman's daughter. I practiced spinning music privately for 12 years and was able to do so only with the financial support I had at that time from my mom, Gloria. I worked for her being her caregiver until she went to live in a nursing facility nearby. I've been around the block to say the least. I was always the quiet one with my headphones practicing on my laptop. Searching for all the funk and 70's soul, knowing off the top of my head hundreds of songs, and obtaining them for my library took A LOT of time. Learning how to beat match and train my ear was another big chunk of time, so I can't say I got much done in the past 10 years other than my art and music. It's all I know in this world. I have no children or no husband. I'm not wife material, nor would I ever claim to be. I'm a free spirit with a strong desire to have a husband, however I believe I haven't found the right person to fill those shoes although I know he's probably out there somewhere. It's a struggle for me to balance a committed relationship with anything or anybody because of my selfishness when it comes to making art and music. I feel GOD has blessed me with natural gifts I was born with, but it was up to me to take my own path in order to learn on my own how to enhance those gifts that were bestowed upon me. That is what I'm doing now. I took a break from the creative living life because although my work isn't exactly Rembrandt or Dali it is a ton of work and then also having my dj hobby, my life and most of the outside world could have easily passed me by and I would be okay with that, that is until March 23rd, 2019. As long as I am given the freedom to create I believe my contribution to the art and music world will be something that I leave behind, if it is not meant to be for me to have any children. This would be the second most important thing for me in life. I have complete faith that GOD will see that I am blessed with what I need in order to leave behind my legacy without EVIL entering that realm and ruining everything. I HATE for this to become a religious rant and rave, nor is it about morals, ethics, standard cost of living and or any other mundane subjects such as those. It is about me IN THIS blog right now, I am the author. My name is Adrianne Jezin. No matter what I do in life, I know creating paintings and art and producing dj mixes is and should be my full-time calling. Any one of us could pass away at any moment and then what? So this is my baby, my creation of what is to be my legacy left behind. To be continued.....(got tired lol)
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